Thursday, October 26, 2006
Should i stop my slight-smirkings on public grounds? It is just sad how people thinks i'm smiling at them when i'm not--okay so maybe i do it for the hell of cheering those weary faces i see everyday at school or anywhere i go, but besides that, i just do it because im selfish: it actually exentuates (sp?) my fugly face features--the more i smile, the more my face gets better everyday. ha! ha!
Was passing by the computer lab last monday, when this guy randomly gave me a slightly-evil smirk back. Like i dunno, something in the lines of "Hmmm, she's smiling at me. must play with it" kind of smile. So im thinking that to prevent further damage on people who thinks i like them, i must stop with my quirky little smiles and work on my pouty face instead...you know, the gangsta look that everybody's pulling off this days. :-P euch. NO WAY.
I've notice that the more i smile, the more i pay it forward while people do the same back. Some of you might think that life is too retarded to even bother turning a frown upside-down but believe me when i say that a smile can create your problems 100th times lighter afterwards. I've never really been like this before although i've learned that ignoring seagul shits in your head once in a while, helps.
And what the hell, what is my own age group emoting for when other people got it worse than us? I've seen all these kids trying to commit suicide because their boyfriend/gf did this, mother did that, school is toughshit, the list of whinies goes on. Some never really get to end their "sad" lives thanks to cowardness but others actually have the guts to do so which is partly depressing and idiotic. If you've read Hamlet's soliloquy, To be or Not to be, the message is very negative but in the end, Hamlet logically understood that ending once life is cowardness thru life's problems as well as that not able to end one is cowardness as well.
So what must an individual do when he could not deal with one or the other?
S M I L E. Take some time to breathe the fuckin polluted garbage air, breathe in, breathe out, smile, and let your hair get flown everywhere by the strong fall wind. stop worrying; let people worry for you and wonder what the fuck happened why you look so happy. :-D
If life is good, smile. If not, still smile.
-keeki.
-keeki.
Blast that stereo, LOUD! {9:56 PM}
