Saturday, January 06, 2007
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My last post was the most serious i'll ever get to. Who am i kidding? No one but my funny, dorky self. I'll never be able to close this blog, never stop writing just because I'm frustrated at something else, and for the most part, will never let go of anyone i've gotten attach to. That's just not me; you know what me is? Me only thinks i have to give up on something else to be happy but all of these things i have now, the people i know, subjects im passionate about are what makes me complete, i know, cheesy, but true. I gotta stop setting high expectations for myself because when i dont achieve it, i'm most likely to be crushed and forever think i'll never be good enough. As for people i think i need to let go of, you've become a part of my very bipolared life and when your gone, I would never be the same, jolly-offensive kid again. The one thing i've learned from these drama-rama bullshitness is that, I DONT HAVE TO STOP DOING WHAT I HAVE TO DO, OR HAVE TO DISLIKE PEOPLE FOR ME TO BE HAPPY, I JUST HAVE TO LEARN TO ACCEPT THAT SOME DAYS, I WONT CREATE MASTERPIECES, I WONT GET ALONG WITH MY MOM, I WONT BE SECURE IN ANY RELATIONSHIPS: THE I WONTS. But you know what comes after any rain? Sunshine. It is not the end of the world everytime i get in trouble in school, i fight with any of my friends or mom... I've managed to get myself out of any situation before, so why would i stop now? Why would i think life for me will never be great again? So no, I wont stop sharing my thoughts to anyone who is interested. I gotta cut myself some slack here; who will believe i can do IT (make something out of my life) when i dont even believe myself? Seriously, now it make sense. :)
-Officially back to business-
who said life will be easy anyway?
who said life will be easy anyway?
P.S. Coldplay, Heath Ledger, and chocolate is THE SEX. how freaky can i get? Well, i could look at a zebra's ass and say its hot (i've done it and been assumed im into bestiality). I could put Heath Ledger as my background for my photoshop class desktop (been there, done that today haha).... who is to blame for my perverted mind? those pop up porns every minute i get online. my brother and his sexual terms with the computer. Rated R movies who dont have anything in mind but to corrupt young minds like mine...NICE. Okay, maybe they're not to blame for all of it, but hey, since i've seen random penis-esk, popping on me like crazy, i started to think, maybe pornography aint that bad after all. I still think its nasty but i guess its good sexual ed (just kidding!?) Sorry, i've turned into Rated R blabber mouth. im so pointless today.
P.P.S. *artwork i did over the break. family shoes in different colors. part imagination, part still life.
P.P.S. *artwork i did over the break. family shoes in different colors. part imagination, part still life.
Blast that stereo, LOUD! {5:53 PM}
