Monday, February 05, 2007
DO you have a soul?That all depends.
Anyway, like i said i didnt do much. It was a very relaxing and rather warm weekend for me but because i was broke like a hobo, I wasnt driven to do anything 'adventurous'. I was hanging out in my room, feeding myself with the teachings of John Roger and Peter Mcwilliams about who could of thought, achieving dreams, as i terribly listen to John Mayer cheesy songs about city love and mothers loving daughters and fathers as well...eeeek. I went in a coffeechino motion; i'm already done with the big, bottle of store brought mocha that i only started drinking last Monday when i needed something to warm and keep me awake while doing art. I got to breathe fresh air last night as I asked a friend if we could hang out--it wasnt anything easy to do either. I had to begged for him to hang out with me because i was already imagining things: like walls talking and stuff toys running around, circling me (I kid). How incredulously stupid.
We went to see a movie: Night at the Museum wasnt anything LOL but funny nonetheless. It helped that Ben Stiler was starring but i felt like the movie was missing something that could have tied it all up. Weird however that i dont remember that much details from it. I think i was too distracted or rather confused...or i was too pre-occupied looking something deeper from the movie.. Sure he got hired, he found out the secret, tried to quit, went back to work with his kid, found out those other nightwatchers were stealing valuable artifacts from the egyptian exhibit, tried to catch them, and they discoed fucking happily ever after? Funny though. "I want my gum-gum, dum-dum!"
On other things, im changing lifestyle. Dont worry, i go through this every season or so but this spring semester and onwards, im thinking of practicing a bohemian lifestyle. Im artsy so that's not a problem, i am in the brink of poverty so the better, i could learn non-conformity and unconventional way of life, so what the heck, bohemian it is! I've channeled all my will-power and my inner soul agreed. ha. I will promote love, peace and those other loving-sounded terms...We'll see though. Cuz just like anyone else out there, im hardly trusting myself with this one. It takes more than one season to pull-forward a lifestyle, i think. Remember, Im eatting meat again ?? I just think life is all about finding who you are and who you wanna be. That's what im doing here. I try everything and when im comfortable with one, i'll settle and be that person. BUT-WHAT IF? Yes? What if i dont find anything that suits me? SO be it. I'll discover "me" instead.
Question: Do you think you are what you are? That you've already figured out who you are? That there's nothing more of "who you are?" Who are you? Those are the questions.
XOXO,
Boni (aka keeki aka ja-nay-nay)
P.S. To be continued... i have soo much to talk about, so many random things to discuss, i dont even know where to start anymore. I start by starting? eh.
deviantart.com photo.
Blast that stereo, LOUD! {8:54 PM}
